It's happened

Bug's mom's rights have been severed. The judge ruled from the bench yesterday. On Thursday the attorney came over and we discussed all the what ifs. I truly am lucky with the team I have. They have always had bugs best interest at heart. Her mom used amphetamines 9 days prior to trial. I feel like that was the tipping point for our judge. I started to get hopeful. Then the judge said it. Dad has all of a sudden surfaced but his severance trial is already scheduled. His parents want her. My heart is again in my toes. So now it's fight time. They don't know her and she doesn't know them. She knows my best friends mom and grandfather as her grandparents. My dad is her papa and my brother is her Unkie. It would be detrimental to move her to strangers. So I will fight for her. 

Sissy continues to struggle daily. Not a day goes by that I think about my limit and how much more I can take. Her team is horrible. I called for help and got a return call 9 days later. We were in crisis when I called. Her team is a joke. We're are on DCS cm number 4. And number 4 I have worked with professionally and she is a joke. Returns kids way too quickly. Mom is still doing amazing though. I am so proud of her. 

And my little chunk. My heart has been hurting for a few months now. She will be going home soon. I don't think I will have her for her first birthday :/ She is crawling and talking up a storm. She's my little snuggle bug and sleepy head. She's my little night cap and love. It will be hard to see her go. She deserves to be with family. 

My little family is about to change again. And as much as I try to protect myself from the what ifs, I cannot wait to introduce bug as who she truly is. 

-K