Is it Monday???

I am a total grump today. I mean grumpy as they come. One of my old neighbors called this morning to inform me of stuff about my old place. How many times do I have to tell her I really don't care and don't want to know. She called 6 times in a row. All 3 kids were melting down, the dogs had socks, and I was trying to get out the door. So you can imagine after the 6th call, I answered a little annoyed. 

The past few nights, I've been having vivid nightmares. Things had gotten better after the move but my brain has been in overdrive with the hearings coming up. I'm exhausted and overwhelmed. As mj as I adore my boyfriend, think the world of him, and cherish our time, he doesn't get this part of my world. I haven't taken the time to fully explain it and he hasn't taken the time to understand it. 

Chunk and Sissy are doing great. Chunk is crawling and pulling herself up to her knees. I love it!!! Their mom is doing even better. I'm so excited to see this happening. My heart will hurt when I lose the girls but I'm so thankful I'm able to be part of their mom doing well. 

Life continues to be a challenge with my mother. People continue to ask questions and I continue to shut people out. I often wonder how long before she just gives up and leaves me alone. I'm her main target right now. Maybe this is the cause of the nightmares increasing. 

Things are going with J. Again, I'm trying to be patient just as he's patient with me. Times like right now, I'd love to just say f it and get the heck out of town. It looks like it will be another 6-8 months before the adoption process will be final if severance happens. Patience..... 

Good thing this gal came home. I'm getting daily horse time again. 

-K